Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

Why is it that everytime I sit to prepare and study for my exams, little tiny things become interesting distractions??? Like the box of siew pao on the table. I find the cover and illustration on it nice and very colour coordinating. As if I have never seen a box of siew pao before... Or the cup of tea right next to me. I must have a sip from it now and at the same time try to read tea leaves and predict my future. As if I don't drink tea on a regular basis. Even the empty used plate catches my eye. I just delight in observing how cheese and crumbs stick together. My, you could even make tiny crumb words. As if I don't play with my food...oops. Everything and anything is good enough to tear my attention away from my books. Why?? Why are you doing this to me??? Gaaahhh....!!!!

Here's wishing everyone a belated Merry Christmas...And Happy New Year too of course. I shall celebrate my New Year's eve with an exam. Oh dang it. *shakes head*   I may be back before that, or not... Make sure to make your resolutions before I come back k? Bye.

Guess who's back? Back again... Kathleen's back. Back again!!! Hahahahaha. Hello hello. Merry Christmas and happy holidays...!!! Yes yes I've been busy but I finally have time for a short breather before I plonk my butt on the chair to prepare for exams... My break just started not too long ago... yippee! Time, please please slowly pass us by. I want to enjoy the remaining of what 2013 has to offer. Been catching up on my laundry... -.-' Clothes which were long overdue for their ironing session hahaha. Very long... So far managed to clear a spot on my chair... two piles more... bleah. Ganbade desu.. Washed three dresses which could not be washed in the washing machine. Feeling satisfied that I am not wasting my free time. Went for my facial as well...also a long overdue thing to do. Now to get my tooth settled for the last session, before the temporary 'cover' breaks and all hell breaks loose as tears and screams of pain erupt from this woman r...

    Beaver's dam. This is so me at the moment... Drowning again and again and again.

I am back! From my camp of course. Freaky scary camp.. Yet when all the hiatus was over, I felt sad. I had a sudden feeling of missing my classmates and all that we went through. Sigh, emotional attachment overload. *Snap out of it*. In the end, camp was ok. No leeches. Thank goodness. We went tracking into the jungle at 5pm and came out at 10pm. We had to cook maggi mee as our dinner in the jungle, at night using torchlights to see. I had to remove or hold branches to clear the way. Guys, what were you doing? We had to tie ropes across two trees and walk across it without falling over while holding on to some 'precious' goods. We had to transfer water from one bucket to another without ever touching any of the pails or scoops. We played the game of "number 7" where you said 'bottle' for every number that contained 7 or was a multiply of 7. We had to build rafts using barrels and bamboo poles... it felt like "Survivor: Uni style". We h...

Upper body is currently aching from the pulling and balancing on top of water. Who knew that water games could be that strenuous? Got heat stroked... feeling hot with a runny nose to boot. This is getting to me. Stop being sick please...   I want to whine today. My group mates are too laidback... they never seem to have any input into our group work. The ones who are discussing are just the two or three of us. There is no teamwork and no group leader. I for one, am not going to be the group leader. Why should I stress myself up? Yes, I want to be selfish and think of myself now. I don't want to think of everyone all the time! I am tired of being a mediator. Thank goodness I will only be with them for this trimester. Then, bye bye! Hasta la vista!   I don't feel like going to camp. I want my weekend to catch up on studies. Silly annoying camp... I don't want to crawl in mud, cross leech-infested rivers and eat fly-infested food. I don't want I don't want I...

Just got back home from the gym today when mom wanted me to go out and pack lunch. I motioned to my gym attire: sleeveless top, sports bra (visible) and three quarter tights. "I can't go out like this. I have to bathe first and change." Mom said this: "It's ok la. You look nice. And your butt is round." I did not know how to reply...

Another holiday is approaching. Yay! I can't tell you how much I appreciate these little breaks in between. It lets me breathe and gain back my much needed energy.   Recently, I have been feeling very different. I don't know why... Or perhaps I do but I just don't think I want to pen this down here. I hope this feeling doesn't last long.   Anyway, here's a poem for your viewing. Scary what we as a society can do to other people. Have you ever thought about it?     Something funny to be shared, lol.   Ok, I think this short poem below would describe what I feel at the moment, for which I had no words to say.     This combination of pictures below sent a shiver up my spine... What lies beneath is anyone's guess, as good as mine, as good as yours.     Ok that's all for now... hehehe. I will try to post better posts soon.. Soon. :P   

Ok I am going to rant. Because I am tired, sleepy and I am a bit annoyed at what is going on... Did you just indirectly backstab me? I very well knew that I included everyone in the email loop for our assignment. But when you compiled, you only sent it to me and one other person. Why? Next thing I know, I open my email and read about another member's effort at compiling questions and that he was not informed about the compilation. And, that he is upset commenting about the hush-hush going on. Who wouldn't be? But then, you replied him through email saying that I am following up with the other team regarding this. It seems to say that I decided on the hush-hush that's going on. Like what? -.- Huh... welcome to the real world.

(Not that kind of quickie) Sorry. Ain't no time to blog much. I have a long pending post actually. But that would have to wait till the weekend is here. :D Toodles. I cannot believe I have three weekends straight filled with wedding dinners. Gone is my moolah.

My reflection for the past week. This week started in a not-so-good mood for me. I started work on Monday, literally crying in the office on Monday morning. No one saw my tears so I was fine with it... haha. I just sat on the office chair and started to cry... I feel so weak. I just felt overwhelmed by certain things. My fuse was way shorter this week too I suppose. I lost my patience and I did not feel like reasoning with my kids that much hahaha. I was a bit of a dictator that day. Sigh. Colleagues said I looked very emo this week. Ooppss... One of my lecturers even asked if I was sick. I'm fine, not sick that is. This week is a tiring week. I've been to uni for four days in a row now and I'm going back tomorrow again for a replacement class... Thank goodness for the short break on Tuesday. Public hols.. need to recharge and bounce back. *boing boing boing* Gonna sleep now, too tired to write much.

     This evening I woke up feeling very down, confused and lost. All because of a dream.        I dreamt that I was someone else, not Kathleen as who I am now. My family consisted of people whom I do not know of in real life, yet in my dream I knew they were my family. I lived in a big house with a whole lot of other people who were family yet strangers.        One day, I was feeling very uneasy so before we went off to bed, I asked a few people to double check the security of the house we lived in as a precaution. I remembered clearly in my dream that I even pulled at the grille doors to make sure that they were all locked, padlock and grille itself. At the same time, my feeling of uneasiness was growing.        So I began to get some people in 'my family' to move to another section of the house to stay in, just for the night. (It was a super big house that was divided into two ...

Curiosity (dissected aka Kathleen style) Curiosity is actually a great advertising tool. Why? People are naturally curious. They want to know about the things that happen around them. It may be in economics, businesses, nature, people, science, technology. Anything and everything at all. This is actually how we have all the different kinds of people working in different kinds of fields. When people are curious, they will want to know about the things that they are naturally curious about. Curiosity comes into play in advertising. Can't remember when, but Hitz.fm once had an event that was not fully explained, which was to take place in the Curve. It was something about two of their DJs being 'punished' by the boss (not sure). People were so curious about it, comments were everywhere about what was actually going to happen. The event was quite talked about during that time. That is an advertisement. It is free too! The same goes for learning. You have to be curio...

Yesterday, my lecturer wanted volunteers for a voluntary assignment. Basically, he said anyone who has the interest to do it and can volunteer to do so. After that, he walked across the classroom and stood in front of me, looked at me and asked, "Would YOU like to do it?" Ehm... that's not voluntary...   I had a better workout session today, hahaha. Meaning I was more satisfied with my exercise this week as compared to last week because of some annoying gym-goers. Today, the gym was exceptionally full too. It is as if the frequent gym-goers were hibernating until the sweltering heat today woke them up. They came in droves!!! Or pairs rather... hahaha. A lady came over and asked me how to use an equipment, but I didn't know how to use it too. Another guy showed her in the end. Ooppss... Bertie Bott's every flavoured beans. (Just kidding) Colours are deceiving... Walk with me, jog with me and run with me. Always. I did some mini planting with the k...

“ People need to be encouraged. People need to be reminded of how wonderful they are. People need to be believed in—told that they are brave and smart and capable of accomplishing all the dreams they dream and more. Remind each other of this. ”   -  Stacey Jean Speer (via l-yps )  Exactly. Eeee..... so adorable.... *hearts in eyes* Hehehe. Doctor Who!!  I will try to look out for all of you. :)        Pictures of quotes which I could relate to and of course a wonderful picture of Matt Smith and a language pun.   I will be here. :) 

I find it odd that my kids are rarely scared of me even when my face is all serious and stoic. But when I am not smiling during classes or meetings, I get told to not be so serious. I am just not smiling!!! It doesn't mean I am being serious... If I start smiling to myself, it will most probably be because I am thinking of something funny and not paying attention to what is going on. I got told by my lecturer yesterday to not be so serious. Honestly, I was struggling to keep awake. My eyelids were drooping so I suppose in my attempt to keep awake I must have looked fierce and serious. What-evs. My kids never seem to see my serious side. Unless I start scolding... jeng jeng jeng. I am not a serious person ok. I just look it. Sigh. Should make more funny faces then. :/ I feel so lonely!! This trimester, I only get to meet my close unimates once a week, compared to when we used to see each other three times a week. We have all started to take up our specialisation...

Things little kids say. *heart melts* Hahaha. Today, during one of our lessons, one kid said something which caused another kid to laugh. But that kid's laughter was so funny, the whole class started to laugh including myself. I must have become very red cause my kids went, "Aunty Kathleen, you're so red." Out of a sudden, this kid went... "Aunty Kathleen, you look very cute when you wear glasses and when you laugh like that. " *shocked* Hahahaha. Oh my gosh, lol. His friend said, "Why you say aunty Kathleen cute and not aunty Kathleen pretty one...You should say aunty Kathleen pretty." *speechless* These are coming from 6 and 7 years old kids eh. Later on, I had a bit of backache so I had to bend down for a while. The same boy who said I was cute, told me how I could buy some back 'thing' (his word), then I can bend my back sideways and it won't hurt. Gahhh.... *hearts in eyes* So adorable... Yet terrorising at times.

My 'Merdeka' came one day late...hahaha. I am finally done with my exams. Yay! Yay! *does a little dance* Why is it that all my exams fall around public holidays....Sigh... Anyway, I cannot believe that it has been one year!!! One year of my masters studies... Hahah. I am halfway there.. How time flies...Keep it up Kathleen. But the truth is... At times, I can't wait for it to end. At times, I wonder why I took this step. At times, I wonder if it will be worth it in the end. All these feelings become stronger during the times when I suddenly feel overwhelmed by it all. Sometimes, I feel like an idiot for doing this. Sometimes, I envy the free time my friends seem to have. Sometimes, I wish I have never started studying. Yet... If I didn't take this step, I would not have met my current uni friends. I would not have learned about the basics of accounting, I would not have understood my own personality, I would not have enjoyed the laws in business. S...

I should most probably be doing a whole lot of other things, other than sitting here and typing this. But I give in to temptation. :) This will be a silly and useless post, just for fun. Ever heard of Tamagotchi? It was the 'in thing' when I was of primary school age. As my parents didn't deem this as vital for my development (no money too), I didn't ask for it either. As the saying in a song goes, "What you don't have, you won't need it." I didn't, even though plenty of my friends were going "Tamagotchi" in their conversations. At times, you would feel kind of out of the loop, but you just bear with it. This kind of fad just dies.... and it sort of did. But now, I have my very own version of tamagotchi! Hahahaha. Egg Baby!!! -.-'. Lol. I think some people would most probably be thinking, "How old are you?" "You have nothing better to do is it?" "Childish." "Immature." Cheh. ...

Being sick is annoying. Your head keeps throbbing. Your nose keeps leaking and getting blocked. You sneeze endlessly. Your fingers and toes are cold. Your body is feverish. Your eyeballs feel like they are on fire, everytime you close your eyes. And when you start to cough, you cough as if your guts are going to explode. You cannot think. You don't feel like eating. All you want to do is to curl up in bed, with your blanket and go to sleep. But you wake up at 4, 5 am just to get yourself a glass of water. When you go back to bed, you take a while to fall asleep. Sigh. I suppose its my body's system telling me to chill. Don't worry so much and to not stress. I rarely fall sick as I don't allow my body to. But since it's the hols, my mind decided to let loose I suppose. Thus, the current condition. And because of other things.... history has repeated itself. Guess I will always be a doormat. To be used. I hate this.... Huh. Have to get well...

Having a flu... Sigh. Must have caught it from my sister and my niece. I keep sneezing...Hope I don't sneeze my brains out. Few more days to get well before work starts. Fever, go away. My legs hurt terribly, especially my thighs. Must have been the hike up Gasing Hill that pushed my dormant muscles into moving again. And now it's sore. Don't even mention squatting. Huh! I couldn't even run 1km this morning. *Tsk.* Finished my part of our group assignment, yee-ha! Now to tackle the individual one which I don't have the mood to do so... :'( I feel like playing instead of cooping myself up at home, rushing my assignments. I ended up listening to very very old Chinese songs on Youtube. Don't ask me why, I'm not a fan myself. But I just did. Brought back memories of when I was younger, boyish, of when my grandmother was still alive and staying in the house with us. I wonder how she is in heaven. I wonder how some people are doing now too. Mosquitoes ...

So sad... I just realised my previous blog template cannot be used... Some bandwidth thingie which I have no idea what it is about... So here is my new template... bues-less. *sad* Am having the blues now.... Will use this temporarily till I get a better one.

I am back!! From my very very short holiday trip that is. A weekend away from the hustle and bustle of KL city. Perfect. Reason for this trip? Discount-rated rooms during the month of Ramadhan. From RM 700 per night to RM 500+. Yes, you read it right, ladies and gentlemen. RM 700 per night per room of 4 pax. Talk about high end! We stayed at Grand Lexis.   That would give you a few hints as to its pricing rate.... huh. But one main reason is that each guest room comes with its very own swimming pool. I kid you not. I didn't believe it either but it is very very true. The bible truth.  The sight that greeted my eyes as I arrived at my point of destination. *jaws drop*  Where we didn't stay... stayed somewhere else.    The walkway leading to the rooms located above the sea.  How the pool looks like in the morning. And how the pool looks like at night.... Beautiful!! It's so blue.....  The other end of the pool leads to a win...

I simply adore the Doctor Who series. Caught it from my younger sister. There were a few episodes that stuck in my mind because it was scary. And mind you, Doctor Who is not a horror series. That was why when I watched the first episode, featuring the weeping angels, I jumped out of my skin. Hahaha, even my godbrothers were hiding behind pillows.... -.-' Thing is, it isn't as scary as movies like Ju-On or Paranormal Activity, but somehow it got to us watching it... hahaha. This is the weeping angel. Looks like any ordinary stone or marble statue right? Wrong. They are, only as you see them, as you look at them. Turn around or get stuck in a space with flickering lights with them....you're dead. Every flicker of a light, they get closer to you. Every blink of an eye, they change their positions. In order to survive, you have to keep looking at them. They don't move when you look at them. That is the only way to stay alive.... But flickering lig...

I do not want to be your group project leader. Please please select someone more worthy and more capable. Look at the marks that we got, it's so freaking low!!! I am not good in this...Huh. Why did you all force this on me??? I feel very burdened that our group got low marks for our group presentation. It is as if the decisions I made was bad. It is very disheartening. I don't want to do this....*wails* I was so disappointed I burst out at what Lim said, though he didn't mean it. If no one gives any comments then I will  proceed with what I think is best. But it wasn't the best....  I hate this. Now onto the heart issues, which I rarely rarely talk about.... This is why... A friend had self-inflicted injuries because of a relationship turned sour. She was always a very strong woman, confident and sure of what she wanted. If a person like her, self harms because of a guy, what more do you think I would do, a person who is not strong at all? Another friend of mine ...

Oh gosh... this cover is so so nice!!! The way he sings and with the piano playing in the background... it just touches my heart and my soul. "If I see you next to never, how can we say forever?" Have fun listening.

I have been feeling very emotional these few days... Could it be that time of the month? Could it be that I put too much pressure on myself? Could it be that I expect too much from my kids? Could it just be something else...? I thought I escaped from the world's cruel eye and perception of beauty. Something that killed me and my confidence terribly during the last few years. I enjoy being the apple of my kids' eyes. To them, you are just their 'auntie'. They look up at you as you tell them stories. They cry when you take away their 'rewards'. They laugh when you say silly things. They ask you things when they are curious as to what you are up to. (I have tricks up my sleeves for them, hehe.) They come searching for you when they need to go to the toilet. (Don't ask...) I enjoy all that. The freedom of being away from the media-crazed world and their outlook of what defines beauty in a woman. I have been able to feel loved and cared for even...

It's been a tiring week. Having a midterm later tonight, yet here I am typing away on my phone in an Old Town White Coffee outlet. Having another midterm this Monday night. Ahh... the life of a uni student. I find my fuse getting shorter day by day. I am still very, very patient but I can't seem to tolerate nonsense from my kids anymore. My tactic now is to just keep quiet when things get rowdy. They normally start to notice and quieten down. Lol, I don't have that much of energy to nag them. It makes me feel like a grandma. I really love the kids.  They are, after all, a previous version of us. Spoiled kids, middle child syndrome, kids with hard parents, show off kids etc. I have some kids which I tend to dote on. Cause I know that they are more capable than they seem. It could be opportunities, their lack of self confidence, competition and so on. In fact,  I dote on all the kids I have classes with. Haha. That's just me. Yes, attending to kids take ...

My goodness. It is so so hot. The haze is bad. It makes me breathe in less psychologically.  My brain is fuzzy and muddled.  It took me quite a while to think of what I wanted to say. *sad case* I dropped my phone the other day. My NEW phone. :( *wails* It got slightly scratched and a bit dented... It slipped out of my hand, that's why. Sigh. Careless woman. I discovered something new about young kids, kids as young as 5 years old. That is, they know how to peek into your clothes... -.- Apparently, my button down top exposed my chest in class the other day. It wasn't unbuttoned, it was the space in between buttons which bunched up and brought about my lovely assets for pairs of curious eyes to see. "Auntie Kathleen, we can see your body." They were so amused they kept giggling about it. Huh.... Unbelievable. They do start young... This heat is unbearable.  Let's go for desserts, shall we?

I just realized how many pending posts I have. Posts which I did in frustration. Posts which I was too tired to complete. Posts which I had a sudden inspiration to pen down, but lost it as soon as I sat down. Most of it are posts that I want to post up but have no time to complete. And once that moment is lost, there is no use doing it. *sad laughter* Someone please drag me out of my house. Soon. I'm being buried alive with my books and documents and class preparations... I'm so outdated on movies and stuff. Bleargh.... I had a fun time with one of my class today. Boys being boys, like to play tricks on other kids. So one boy had this fake chewing gum stick, upon pulling it, reveals a plastic cockroach. "Hello, your auntie here is not young. I've seen this trick before." He tried to trick me which was not successful... Thank goodness. Imagine if I started screaming. The whole centre will be in chaos. Lol. But his friend got tricked and I coul...

I spent my whole day today sleeping... It's that time of the month when I get super tired. Zzz... Weather ain't helping much..   I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is You   I've got to read a lot of books, articles, journals, documents. A lot of things to feast my eyes on...hahaha.   The word "trust" is currently appearing very strongly in my life.   Others put their utmost trust in me. I have to learn to trust others AGAIN. I have to learn to trust God too.   Trust is not easy gain, But it is easy to break.   If I trust you, You have won my favour.   I trust that I will do my best since you have put your trust in me. Thank you for that trust. 

Oh my gosh oh my gosh! Sigh. It's only two days but I cannot, just cannot put my phone down to stop whatsapping!!! It's so much of fun! Cause I can talk nonsense. And I won't waster other people's credit reading my nonsense. Hahahah. What have I been missing??!! Don't spoil it for me now ok. Let me just enjoy the moment. :P My kids made me cry!!! Argh! Not in front of them la. At home cause I felt so frustrated. I wonder if anything taught in class goes into their heads or am I talking to walls instead? I'm a good wall student myself but I still learn! I hope they learn something. :( I met my BLE lecturer finally, cause he missed one lesson with us the week before. He thought I was an international student!! He asked if I was Japanese or Korean, to which I said no. Then he asked if I had any Japanese or Korean blood in my family line. Hahahaha. He said it's compliment and I wholeheartedly agree!!! Sorry ya, I'll be vain a bit. Even my own kids ...

Hello! Yes, I have been blogging very badly. It's just that I have been very very busy... Haven't been sleeping well too. The anxiety of preparing for my classes for work scares me...hahaha. Ok, let's see. I just had my first week of my third semester. I will be dropping one subject, confirmed. :D It was a headache thinking of which subject to drop due to timing, my preference, the lecturers. But I finally decided on one. *You fickle-minded woman!* Thank you God!!! :D I maintained my CGPA and I very very glad and happy AND relieved! Hahah. Hehehe. Work-wise, I struggle to maintain that strictness I so often observe which is possessed by my seniors but not me. I am really really not strict enough. It *inhales* because I want to be fierce and for the kids to be scared of me! But they are not scared of me. Hmmm... My kids run everywhere (the young ones, 5-6 years old), under the table, from one side of the room to the other. Sigh. Come back here!! Auntie Kathleen...

Wow, oh wow. I sincerely respect the two of you and am in awe of the both of you as well. God bless you both. :D

Today I wept for my country.. I wept for my fellow citizens of Malaysia. I wept for not so much as to which coalition won but for the way it was done. I am terribly sad. But yet, I am glad as well. Glad that I have a country to weep for. It means I belong somewhere. Glad that I have my countrymen to weep with. It means that some of us do share the same sentiments. Glad that I still have functioning tear ducts. Ha! Glad that I did my part. However, I do wonder if PR's strategy or tactic has gone wrong? PAS seems to have done very badly this round. MCA's loss was painstakingly obvious. I keep seeing people supporting UBAH. But it is not comprised of all Malaysian ethnicities. Will the race game still be played??? Dear God, I pray I pray that we will all be safe and sound. Let us all keep our cool and be calm. Let us not fall into any more traps. Let us accept one another for who we are and not just tolerance. Acceptance. A symbol of light, peace...

I got inked!! Finally. Was waiting to go with Ei... getting impatient too. Hahaha. Facebook homepage was spammed with everyone who have already voted and I had not had my turn yet. It made me all the more eager to go!!! But at last, I threw in my votes into those ballot boxes. Yippee! The finger...! I got mine. Did you get yours??

This, is a letter to the fence-sitters, to the so-called neutrals and to the so-what-I-don't-cares out there, Hello, how are you? I must say, what are YOU doing in our country if you belong to any of the categories above?!! Get out. Please. What do you mean it doesn't concern you? Is taking 5 minutes of your 'precious' time just to vote in a span of 5 years THAT painful for you? Why, you can spend that 5 minutes sleeping in is it? Of course you can. You can sleep when prices of necessities go up. You can sleep when break-ins, robberies and snatch-thefts rate increase. You can sleep when the poorer people get poorer and the richer people get richer, unfairly. You can sleep when justice goes the other way round. You can sleep when us Malaysians are no longer as important as our 'imported' brothers and sisters. You can sleep when our country goes corrupt or worse, bankrupt. For goodness sake. You're a citizen aren't you? It's you...

Happy Labour Day everybody!!! I hope you have not been slaving away today. But I did. I worked hard for 12 hours! :'( Or rather I was cramming and mugging away for my exam. Two papers in a day, on a public holiday!! Eesh. All because of our GE 2013. All papers had to be pushed forward and with no other slots available, they put it on Labour Day. :/ Sigh... Oh well... Two down, one more to go... Then that's the end of semester 2! Yippee! Elections are just but a few days ahead of us. Have you made your choice? "IniKaliLah.... Or LainKaliLah..." So much of news going around eh? Make sure your voting process goes smoothly. Check your ballot papers. Bring an eraser with you. Print your registered status if you have not done so, as a precaution. And, read alternative media as well as mainstream media... Barulah balance, macam dacing tu... :P Hahaha. V for Vendetta.... Awesome movie.

Malaysia, it's your say now. Say it right, vote right. Come back and vote. Go back and vote. Remember to vote. Oh goodness gracious... look at what I did.... My mind's confused. What am I? A butcher???   Can you see what I wrote? I typed in,"Candidate should look fresh and alive". Thank goodness I reread my work... -.-' Hahahaha!! I'm treating candidates who come in to companies for interviews as fresh meat. Like from a wet market. Lelong lelong! This shows that my brain is a bit too messed up. Too many things till I jumble up a lot of words. Anyway, elections are coming up. I am disappointed that some parties, out of desperation, have resorted to party-bashing IN a 'below the belt' kind of way. Yer!!! We know you own the mainstream media, we know. Newspapers, TV stations and now even the radio stations??? Instead of bashing the other party, why can't you promote your party? Share with the rakyat of Malaysia what the...