Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

I'm procrastinating. I should be doing others things but I just don't feel like doing it. Like planning out my itinerary for my upcoming overseas trip or ironing my clothes. I feel so lazy.... Oh gosh. You know, having a soul adoptee to pray for is tough. But yours truly was greedy enough to adopt 9 living persons as her soul adoptees. Nine!! I'm making my own life tougher. And it is not as if my praying stamina is strong..! I'm lazy... but because I wanted to adopt nine living souls, I have to keep them constantly on my mind and in my prayers. Be it at work, bedtime, bus stop, daydreaming, they are always on my mind....circling round my thoughts. It takes a lot of commitment to pray for them. Sometimes, I struggle to pray, especially during bedtime when I'm half asleep. Or when I get distracted by a passing cat or other annoying humans as I wait at the bus stop. Or even at work where I just try to close my eyes in prayer and the office door opens with someo...

     This evening I woke up feeling very down, confused and lost. All because of a dream.        I dreamt that I was someone else, not Kathleen as who I am now. My family consisted of people whom I do not know of in real life, yet in my dream I knew they were my family. I lived in a big house with a whole lot of other people who were family yet strangers.        One day, I was feeling very uneasy so before we went off to bed, I asked a few people to double check the security of the house we lived in as a precaution. I remembered clearly in my dream that I even pulled at the grille doors to make sure that they were all locked, padlock and grille itself. At the same time, my feeling of uneasiness was growing.        So I began to get some people in 'my family' to move to another section of the house to stay in, just for the night. (It was a super big house that was divided into two ...