Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

Christmas is like.... five days away. Oh my goodness me.... Huh... The Christmas tree in my house just got set up. Seriously, you wouldn't know the people living in my house celebrated Christmas as our house looks bare!! This Christmas itself I hear of two deaths. Death... so close, during this time of the year. It feels so wrong... Christmas should be about joy, happiness and others...not death. Yet the Grim Reaper chooses not his time. I ran out of time to do something for Christmas. Sigh. Cause it's always about me, me, me. What I want for Christmas and stuff. Then I got slapped in the face (ok, not really but a wake up call). I have so much going for me, why was I complaining? Instead of wanting something for Christmas, why don't I do something for Christmas for other people? Well, I tried. I joined the carolling practice sessions. Haha. Didn't make it on the day itself. Too bad we no longer sing in the shopping malls. There are other things that I am doing and

People... never never drink and drive. It is dangerous yo! My tolerance for alcohol has either decreased, or that glass of Sangria was made of wine that contained a more than your usual percentage of alcohol. My head was throbbing, my vein was more visible and my heart was beating faster..! Anyway, woke up with rashes on my body. Sad. Looks like I can't do social drinking much. Huh. It was only one small glass....... Even less than a can of beer or a box drink. Yet, I still had breakouts. Grr... Oh by the way, the Sangria here in Malaysia.... is pffftt... Lin2 and KT's gf LL also agreed. Once you've tasted the wine in Europe, even the cheapest, the wine in Malaysia can no longer be compared. Huh. But I had an enjoyable time meeting up with my Uni mates: (KT, Jenny, Ash, Tee, Lin2 and Meow!!!) I haven't seen Meow for a year... and we used to be super close. Lol. We're like Kath and Meow. Hahaha. Hilarious! Still as pretty as always and so are her 'bullying&#

   Don't be fooled by me. Don't be fooled by the mask I wear. For I wear a mask, I wear a thousand masks, masks that I'm afraid to take off, and none of them is me. Pretending is an art that is second nature with me, but don't be fooled.    ...I give the impression that I'm secure, that all is sunny and unruffled with me, within as well without; that confidence is my name and coolness is my game;... But don't believe it; please don't.    .. .I tell you everything that's really nothing, nothing of what's crying within me... Please listen carefully and try to hear what I'm not saying...    I'd really like to be genuine, spontaneous, and me; but you have to help me... Each time you are kind and gentle and encouraging... or when you try to understand because you really care... with your sensitivity and sympathy and your power of understanding... You breathe life into me.    Who am I, you may wonder. For I am every man, every woman, every child...

2011 comes to a close in 30 more days.... What has changed? Have I changed? If yes, for better or for worse? If not, should I have? I HAVE changed. For worse I feel. I have become less confident. My self esteem has taken a hit. This whole year, I feel that I have been very unstable. I used to be very sure of myself. But somehow, I feel like I have lost a bit of me. The time I spend feeling down has increased exponentially, so fast till a point that it has started to scare me. What the heck is wrong??? I am not like this! I am not. I don't want to be like this. Pathetic! Sigh. See? Even this post has a down and melancholic tone in it. I am so confused that I do not know what to do. Even if I do, how to go about doing it? Is it the right choice? Will I regret my decision later? Christmas, where are you? Coldness is in my heart, clenching its fist tightly as the days go by. So cold, I fear I become like that too. A cold person, a heartless human being. An emot

Was let off from work early today, unexpectedly. Yay! Just have to make sure I submit my reports and stuff on time. Haven't been updating for a while... cause I am sort of speechless. Hahaha. Yea... even typing this is using a lot of my brain memory and heartfelt feelings. I wouldn't say that a lot of things have been happening. It isn't reallly... but yet it has. In a way. Some idiot used my car as a getaway... no, he/she didn't steal it but they must have jumped from a high ledge onto my car to reach the ground. Cause there's a huge dent on the roof which collects water everytime it rains. Huh! Watched a few movies with friends. Nasi Lemak 2.0, In Time, Real Steel and Immortals. Immortals was like salivating la....hahahah. The actors, fuh! The scene where all the Gods stood/sat in the heavens looking down on earth was... *mouth hangs open* They wore gold costumes which bared their "heaven made" bodies and they looked good! Two girls beside me were bu

Yes yes another post in the same day. I can't help it. My urge for dancing has led me to 'youtubing' songs which I enjoyed dancing to. Heheh. *shy* Here's one. Sugar Sugar - the Archies And another one... And another.... Oh gosh... I sound very old don't I? Hahaha. I really love the music then. Oh well, I always had the fancy for the 1980's and before. Not everything la. I can't stop laughing as I type this. No, my dear friends. I have not gone mad. This is just another side of me I don't really show much. Cause no one shares this interest. Who will? It's embarrassing... Hahaha. And you know what? Right now, I am dancing the Twist to the music video above. ROFL. *tears in my eyes* I have sing K kaki, now I need dancing kaki. :P My mid section hurts.

Oh my gosh... I suddenly have this urge to go dancing!!! I want to go for dancing classes. I remember Jenny asking me to join her last time, somewhere in TTDI. But I never found the time to, most probably because I procrastinate. Hahaha. How how? That urge is back!! I want to sway my hips, twirl my body, twist my shoulders, kick my legs according to rhythm & melodies!!! Clubbing is not dancing cause you are under the influence of alcohol. Everything seems nice when you're high. Ha. Really! I want real dancing. I can't start back on ballet again. I'll be in the same class as little kiddies. Grade 3... :( I actually don't mind line dancing. Lol. Aunty dance. Hey, I like the Twist. Remember Jive Bunny? Go 'youtube' it. It's nice! Of course, I love ballet but I think I am too old for that. I got into ballet cause mom thought I was a bit too tomboy-ish, always climbing into drains and catching tadpoles. Hahahaha. Belly dancing ain't too ba

" At this moment, there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world.   Some are running scared.   Some are coming home.   Some tell lies to make it through the day.   Others are just now facing the truth.   Some are evil men, at war with good.   Some are good, struggling with evil.   6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls.   And sometimes all you need is one. "  - Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill Season 3 Episode 1 Was blog hopping when I came across this little paragraph the blogger had posted. I never really watched the series but I like this 'poem'. Each sentence tells me a different story which I can relate to in my life. Anyway, happy halloween!!! Remember, Halloween is the only time you can dress up as scantily as you want without people calling you a skank or stuff. Just kidding.... Be good. :) (Don't do things I wouldn't do...)

   She woke up early today at 6 am. She had to hit snooze a few times before she finally sat up in bed, with her hair tousled and eyes that could barely open. It was hard getting out of bed. Her bed which was as warm as toast compared to the slightly chilly temperature as her feet touched the wooden parquet floor.    Groaning, she walked around her room in the dark, searching for something to tie up her hair in before heading into the darkly lit bathroom. 20 minutes later, she felt and looked slightly refreshed. Looking into her dressing mirror, she observed the darkening eye circles appearing under her eyes. Shrugging to herself, she put on her glasses and got ready to leave the house.    It was an early Saturday morning, with less cars on the roads at that time. The 30 minute drive was as enjoyable as could be as she cruised along the road without a care in the world. In her back seat was a bundle of chrysanthemum flowers, neatly wrapped and packed with newspapers dating back to a

I dislike statement t shirts. Especially when it is done in an extremely bad taste and fashion. Imagine seeing someone wearing a t shirt that says, "It's not easy being easy." -,-' I don't think it's cute or funny. Just bad taste. People have to bear in mind, that when they wear these kind of tops, they are indirectly sending out some sort of message to everyone who comes across them. Good or bad. Some are worse. There's a white shirt with words going something like this, "Don't like me? Well you can go and suck on this." with a finger pointing downwards. Obviously, it is not targeted at female wearers but guys. Still! If I don't like you kan, I would already kick you down there la... Suck my foot. I mean, my foot as in "sao pei" la. I am not asking anyone to suck my foot. Eeww... If you have foot fetish, go elsewhere. Ha! One of my sisters adores wearing these kind of shirts. Huh. There's one which I really don't app

   I wanted to write about something else but I figured that it would be too morbid for some, so I decided not to. :) Anyway, yesterday was my late grandfather's first death anniversary. I won't say much cause I'll end up back on the morbid topic.    Nearly everyone knows what happened with Empire shopping gallery. The blast that made it inoperable, save for the hotel and SOHO, for a month of two. Dad blurted out this funny line, as we were commenting on the crowd in Subang parade. He was saying that when Empire reopens, they will come back with full force. "The Empire strikes back..!!" Imagine Empire's logo here on the poster...hahaha. The Shopping Malls Wars Saga Continues. (Urgh, what a mouthful...lol.) I am hoping Empire reopens fast. I have a few things on my mind which I am having trouble jotting it down. Thus, the lack of posts... Sigh. I actually noticed I have been less and less expressive. I keep getting more reserved and quiet. Anyway, I a

You know, I have been stupidly naive all this while haven't I? "Why be so trusting Kathleen?" "Because I always think good of others." "But that is almost never true isn't it?" "Yea.....Sigh." I never realized this until Chian and SY commented one fine day. Their comment was that I will never think bad of others. That I will always give a reason for why certain people were behaving in a certain way. Like if so and so was being cold, they would say that the person is a snob. I would come in and say, that the person was just having a bad day or perhaps feeling shy. I didn't really believe it until it happened, right there and then I did exactly what they said without knowing it. As I examined my thoughts and behaviour, yes, I admit I have been doing it. I have been too trusting, too naive, always believing that others will never have any motives for doing what they were doing or behaving as how they were. How stupid

I had a slight injury the other day. Nothing too major. Fell down the stairs and hurt my butt. Reminded me of one episode in Grey's Anatomy where a cheerleader was hospitalized for "breaking her butt". Thank God I didn't fall face forward down the steps, I didn't roll down the steps like those you see in drama movies and thank God I didn't hit my backbone on the steps as well. I shall elaborate further on that later, now, I want to talk about Investor's Day! Went for iCapital's AGM the other day. Didn't really know what was going on. There were resolutions of who and who of what post, a seconder then a vote to put something into motion. We were given these yellow voting cards but I didn't use them as I had no idea what I was voting for. (If it's the upcoming GE, then I will know.) After that was over, the talks began. The stock market, the Euro crisis, US, China. For the first time in my life, I learned words like gross domestic product (

Someone made my day today. It was just a simple act of consideration from a total stranger which made it all the more worth sharing. I paid my parking ticket and was coming out of a shopping mall onto one of the main roads in Subang. Got stuck as there was a long queue at the red lights. There was this particular car that had its headlights shining directly into my line of sight. To block off the glare in order to see the road properly, I used my right hand to shield my eyes. (My eyes my eyes....*drama moment*) I was in that position only for a minute when the glare suddenly disappeared. I turned and saw that the driver had toned down the car's headlights. I was kinda surprised and I burst out laughing in my car. Like, "Wow!". The driver was observant enough!! I didn't have to wave like monkey or curse for the lights to be dimmed. And... it was unexpected. Felt slightly embarrassed, so I just waved and smiled a thanks to the shadow in that car. Cannot se

I know... A bit outdated on the posts. :P Been a busy bee. So here's another one to tide you through till the next post. A Summary of the Week I Had Saturday (03/09) Went for a karaoke session with Chian, SY, David and Lionel. Arrived late and left early. Sad... didn't get to really let my hair down and really catch up with them. Urgh! Sunday Went for another karaoke session with Yan, Chooy, Ben10 and CC. This time, in KL. Driving to KL was my biggest feat! I am a hopeless case for directions especially driving. I asked dad to draw me a map to Lot 10. Hahahaha. But hey, I reached the place without having to call ok? Albeit the missed turning.. My mom actually said she salutes me. I asked her why. She said because I dare drive into KL. See? I have to learn! My mom hates driving into KL. LOL. Tuesday Gym... Cardio. Cause I want to/need to/must keep fit. Been binge-ing a bit. Grr... Though people have been saying I lost weight. Hmm.... Wednesday Last minute yum cha se

And the fun officially begins today...! :D We spent the early part of the day in the Retiro park. The park was huge!!! Lots of greenery (finally).. You can actually get lost. There were volunteers but because of the language barrier, it was hard to get directions. "No inglais no inglais!" Direct translation, no English. *rolls my eyes a bit*  How can you have volunteers for an international event who can't even speak English?? With some youths from the country of Portugal!!! Football yo...! This was an activity where they praised God using dance movements. It was fun when they involved us as well. We just had to do some simple actions. A view of the spectators from the other side of the so-called stage. Nearly everyone was wearing hats as the weather could get quite hot midday and you don't wanna get sunburn! Our East Malaysia contingent, the Sabahans! Don't mind the lady in blue. She got in my shot. :( Citizens from Vietnam, in their traditional wear (a

August 15. The day when we prepared to head off to our respective lodgings for the WYD2011 event.  Before that, my very first mass in a Spanish church. Wah... Feast of Assumption. (Mary goes up into Heaven.) It was a bit sad lo. Have you any idea who were the majority people in the church? OLD LADIES!! All white haired and frail looking. It was something that opened up our eyes.  One version of Mother Mary.. I like this one. :)  Jesus in the middle with a child and the two saints beside Him. Thank goodness we still have churches in Malaysia with statues like this. (Btw, just to clarify it in here, Catholics do not worship statues.) It just there to remind us.  The ceiling of the church... The lighting is awesome!  How the church looks like from the outside.. Looks like some ordinary brick building huh?  I am imagining my grandpa sitting there and me, with my arms lovingly around his neck and shoulders. :) The beautiful beautiful park...!  Greenery is rare in Madrid. Tha