Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

2011 comes to a close in 30 more days.... What has changed? Have I changed? If yes, for better or for worse? If not, should I have? I HAVE changed. For worse I feel. I have become less confident. My self esteem has taken a hit. This whole year, I feel that I have been very unstable. I used to be very sure of myself. But somehow, I feel like I have lost a bit of me. The time I spend feeling down has increased exponentially, so fast till a point that it has started to scare me. What the heck is wrong??? I am not like this! I am not. I don't want to be like this. Pathetic! Sigh. See? Even this post has a down and melancholic tone in it. I am so confused that I do not know what to do. Even if I do, how to go about doing it? Is it the right choice? Will I regret my decision later? Christmas, where are you? Coldness is in my heart, clenching its fist tightly as the days go by. So cold, I fear I become like that too. A cold person, a heartless human being. An emot...

Was let off from work early today, unexpectedly. Yay! Just have to make sure I submit my reports and stuff on time. Haven't been updating for a while... cause I am sort of speechless. Hahaha. Yea... even typing this is using a lot of my brain memory and heartfelt feelings. I wouldn't say that a lot of things have been happening. It isn't reallly... but yet it has. In a way. Some idiot used my car as a getaway... no, he/she didn't steal it but they must have jumped from a high ledge onto my car to reach the ground. Cause there's a huge dent on the roof which collects water everytime it rains. Huh! Watched a few movies with friends. Nasi Lemak 2.0, In Time, Real Steel and Immortals. Immortals was like salivating la....hahahah. The actors, fuh! The scene where all the Gods stood/sat in the heavens looking down on earth was... *mouth hangs open* They wore gold costumes which bared their "heaven made" bodies and they looked good! Two girls beside me were bu...

Yes yes another post in the same day. I can't help it. My urge for dancing has led me to 'youtubing' songs which I enjoyed dancing to. Heheh. *shy* Here's one. Sugar Sugar - the Archies And another one... And another.... Oh gosh... I sound very old don't I? Hahaha. I really love the music then. Oh well, I always had the fancy for the 1980's and before. Not everything la. I can't stop laughing as I type this. No, my dear friends. I have not gone mad. This is just another side of me I don't really show much. Cause no one shares this interest. Who will? It's embarrassing... Hahaha. And you know what? Right now, I am dancing the Twist to the music video above. ROFL. *tears in my eyes* I have sing K kaki, now I need dancing kaki. :P My mid section hurts.

Oh my gosh... I suddenly have this urge to go dancing!!! I want to go for dancing classes. I remember Jenny asking me to join her last time, somewhere in TTDI. But I never found the time to, most probably because I procrastinate. Hahaha. How how? That urge is back!! I want to sway my hips, twirl my body, twist my shoulders, kick my legs according to rhythm & melodies!!! Clubbing is not dancing cause you are under the influence of alcohol. Everything seems nice when you're high. Ha. Really! I want real dancing. I can't start back on ballet again. I'll be in the same class as little kiddies. Grade 3... :( I actually don't mind line dancing. Lol. Aunty dance. Hey, I like the Twist. Remember Jive Bunny? Go 'youtube' it. It's nice! Of course, I love ballet but I think I am too old for that. I got into ballet cause mom thought I was a bit too tomboy-ish, always climbing into drains and catching tadpoles. Hahahaha. Belly dancing ain't too ba...

" At this moment, there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world.   Some are running scared.   Some are coming home.   Some tell lies to make it through the day.   Others are just now facing the truth.   Some are evil men, at war with good.   Some are good, struggling with evil.   6 billion people in the world, 6 billion souls.   And sometimes all you need is one. "  - Peyton Sawyer, One Tree Hill Season 3 Episode 1 Was blog hopping when I came across this little paragraph the blogger had posted. I never really watched the series but I like this 'poem'. Each sentence tells me a different story which I can relate to in my life. Anyway, happy halloween!!! Remember, Halloween is the only time you can dress up as scantily as you want without people calling you a skank or stuff. Just kidding.... Be good. :) (Don't do things I wouldn't do...)

   She woke up early today at 6 am. She had to hit snooze a few times before she finally sat up in bed, with her hair tousled and eyes that could barely open. It was hard getting out of bed. Her bed which was as warm as toast compared to the slightly chilly temperature as her feet touched the wooden parquet floor.    Groaning, she walked around her room in the dark, searching for something to tie up her hair in before heading into the darkly lit bathroom. 20 minutes later, she felt and looked slightly refreshed. Looking into her dressing mirror, she observed the darkening eye circles appearing under her eyes. Shrugging to herself, she put on her glasses and got ready to leave the house.    It was an early Saturday morning, with less cars on the roads at that time. The 30 minute drive was as enjoyable as could be as she cruised along the road without a care in the world. In her back seat was a bundle of chrysanthemum flowers, neatly wrapped and p...

I dislike statement t shirts. Especially when it is done in an extremely bad taste and fashion. Imagine seeing someone wearing a t shirt that says, "It's not easy being easy." -,-' I don't think it's cute or funny. Just bad taste. People have to bear in mind, that when they wear these kind of tops, they are indirectly sending out some sort of message to everyone who comes across them. Good or bad. Some are worse. There's a white shirt with words going something like this, "Don't like me? Well you can go and suck on this." with a finger pointing downwards. Obviously, it is not targeted at female wearers but guys. Still! If I don't like you kan, I would already kick you down there la... Suck my foot. I mean, my foot as in "sao pei" la. I am not asking anyone to suck my foot. Eeww... If you have foot fetish, go elsewhere. Ha! One of my sisters adores wearing these kind of shirts. Huh. There's one which I really don't app...