Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

Hey hey hey! Wow, my mom actually went to India for one week for a holiday AND I could actually survive without her! What a miracle! Haha. Tomorrow she's coming back. Yahoo! Really missed her, well, you know me, always close to my mom. Hope she's well and fully rested. Oh ya, MUET results will be out soon. Next week in fact, according to my MUET teacher. I hope, I hope I will get satisfactory results. Must wait and see. Ouch... I'm having a terrible stomachache le. It keeps hurting. Been like that for the past one hour plus. Gosh don't know what's wrong with me. Cannot stand it much longer. Oh yeah, by the way, I actually drove the car to school on Thursday and today. By myself! Yay! Even drove some friends home. Haha. Freedom at last! How cool man!

Wahahaha. Mid year exams are finally over!!! Yay! Now for two weeks of holidays and then back to school and work. Only the trial paper left to go, and then the big deal... STPM! Wah, so much to study and remember. Didn't remember enough for my mid year.. oh well. Left out one essay each for chem and bio. 15 marks gone down the drain. Not to mention all the guessing games for structure questions and eeny-meeny-miny-moes for the objectives. Wonder how I'm gonna fare. Well, I'll know after two weeks. Hopefully I won't fail any subjects. That would be like so sad man! Seriously.. What to do... I'm not born with THE brains... I have to change my strategy of studying I think. Must do more past year questions instead of just reading and memorising. Ain't gonna help me much. For now, I'm just gonna kick back and enjoy!

Haha. Finally my MUET exam is over!!! Well, except for the speaking part. Had to wake up at 6 a.m. in the morning just to goto school to sit for this exam. I must get a band 6, oh, I just hope I do. Didn't really do well in my essay part... Don't understand the message they're trying to convey. Couldn't write a lot, think I did a slip-shod job out of it. So sad so sad. Straining to open my eyes now, hehe. Thank goodness Monday is a holiday! If not, I think I would faint from the exhaustion and tension and stress. Well, semester exams are just two weeks away. And the orientation for the lower six students is also in the next two weeks. Hmmm.... wonder who's coming in. Yay yay at least I can call them my juniors. Photo taking session is during next week after the labour day holiday. Hehe, must prune myself and make myself look presentable *wink* :). Aaiii, senior page photos also not taken yet. My class is definitely slow in this kind of things. Oh well, it will come...

Great. Really great... I feel like crying again when I think of the incident. Today was the second time I dissected a mouse. Dissecting is not a problem to me. The thing is, the mouse that I killed and cut up today was PREGNANT and I think quite a few weeks already. I could see the foetus of the mouse babies. They WOULD HAVE BEEN able to live had I decided not to dissect their mother. I feel so sad and terrible to think they would never be able to see the world. I was half crying while dissecting this particular mouse. Really broke my heart. I suspected it was pregnant but thought that maybe I was wrong. Well, I am wrong alright! Killing little things like that... My teacher had to cut out the placenta for me. Tears were blurring my vision and I had to keep on wiping away my tears. Just feel so sad.

Haha. My monthly tests are over! Now I can relax for a bit and then continue studying!!! You know what? I'll be dissecting a mouse on Monday. You know, those kind of white laboratory mice. Eewww... have to kill them first then only can cut them open. But it's so gross and I'm kind of squeamish looking at blood and guts. Urgh! Hope I can do it. Searching on the internet on ways to dissect a mammal. But everything that crops up is not related to what I want. Tick infection, preparing a snail(what is this anyway?), plus some other silly biology stuff. Getting irritated. And to think that I followed what my teacher did to get her own dissecting procedure. Does the website hate me or what? Heheh. Ah!

Well well well. It's been a golly long time since I've last benn here. Keep forgetting to log in and then busy and etc. Hehe. Now let me update you on some stuff which happened during my absence. I went to do my spectacles, changing to a new frame or rather frameless which in purple in colour and my eyesight has deteriorated slightly. Aaiii... I also fell sick just recently. Had the cold, fever, cough.. the usual package you know. :) My monthly test is in three weeks time and I have a one week break next week. Yay! But I have to go back on two days for extra classes. Oh well. I have to really work hard this year.. don't want to repeat what happened during my SPM. I must focus on my goals and ignore those obstacles because I can do it!

Okay, you know right? Nowadays I think I've been extra stressed up and feeling really tense. One of my lymph nodes actually swelled and my head sometimes hurts too because I'm so tensed. When I press that lump, it's kind of hard and it also hurts a bit. Nothing fatal right? I certainly hope so. But it juts out of my neck and is so unsightly. Argh! When it first appeared I got kind of scared, thought was cancer or something. But now I know better, it's something to do with stress and all. So all I have to do is calm down and it will go away. It actually did, then it came back during the weekend.. eesh. So sad. Well, I hope that it will cease to exist. Pray for me.