Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

Okay, holidays are ending soon, only four more days to school. Argh! The horrors. Don't know what's wrong with me. Used to be excited to go back to school. Maybe because I don't like the school that much yet, or maybe there's no one I'm excited to see about. Anyway, I think I have to gain back my momentum in preparation for classes. Managed to finish chapter 8 of chemsitry today. A bit sad huh? Had wonderful plans for the holidays but didn't end up doing them. I only did a bit of practice for pure mathematics. Freaking out already. STPM is coing soon. Very soon as time flies by quickly. I'm now having a headache rushing through a dateline for a group project. Can't identify the plants, have no way of nowing how. And with three of my group members' computer system down, I have to bear the load. Thank goodness another member still has a functioning computer. my shoulder aches due to the long sitting sessions and my head really hurts as I strain my eyes...

Hey ya people. It's been quite a long time since my last entry. I've been busy for these few weeks I can tell you. After my cameron trip, on Dcember 4th, I had to help out in some sports event, later on that same day I had a birthday gathering to attend to. I was so tired I nearly fell alseep at home! Then just last Friday, me and a bunch of church friends went to Penang for a holiday. Four days and three nights. Man! I certainly had fun with these people there. Really enjoyed this trip. Not to forget I also had to go to my friend's house to complete the bio project. Can't wait till it's done. But you know what? I haven't really started to study yet? And classes start in just three weeks time! Help! Eesh! Must seriously buck up. Well, just to say that I'm busy busy busy!

Haha. Yeah, yeah! It's the school holidays!! Feel so happy. Well, holidays actually started about two weeks ago, but I didn't have time to come online. So, here I am! I went to Port Dickson just last last Saturday and tomorrow I'm going to Cameron Highlands. Hooray! Can't wait. Hehe. A time to relax and catch bugs, bleah! That's the latest news for now. I need to study though, must not let the same thing happen again like SPM. STPM 4 As!

Okay. My exams were finally over since last week! Yippee! And of course I got back some of the results. Sad to say, I failed pure mathemetics this time. I don't know, I'm just not really good in add maths and pure maths and stuff. Thank goodness I'm not taking further mathematics. Would really kill me. Haha. Well, my biology and chemistry papers' results were okay. But I think I can certainly do better. For Maths too by the way. Have to put in more effort. Practice, practice, practice. Got to reach the sky next time. Yay!

Man, how I do hate being sick! I have no mood to do anything. Can't read, study or even watch any TV programmes. When you have a cold, your nose and eyes water so often, you have to close your eyes and just sleep. Coz it just hurts to have them open. I feel bored at home because I can't seem to do anything. And yet when I'm in school, how I wished I could stay at home. Arrgh! And my exams are just next week! What a swell time to get sick.

Okay, I have no idea what I'm doing here cause I don't usually come online during school days. But I was tempted by my sister! Don't feel like going to school tomorrow. For the whole day, I only have two periods of class. Imagine that! Got to get my determination to study to face my future exams. Aaiii... Help me? Feel lost, like I've lost all my direction in life. Don't leave me in the dark here alone. I need a guide and a light. Do you hear me? :)

You know, most of us here are very lucky. Lucky in the sense that we are healthy, don't have any deformities and can lively comfortably with our parents' suffcient income. But yet, the grass is always greener on the other side for most of us. We tend to be ungrateful for what we have. Have we ever sat down and thought about how lucky we are? That we have a nice house to live in, enough food and clothes, able to go to school and so on. Rarely right? A lot of people aren't so lucky as we are. Some children have to skip classes to work just to support their family. Saddening is it not? Everyday, people are being warded in the hospital for all types of diseases. It seems nothing much to us until we are there ourselvs to witness and see the suffering they have to go through. So, we should thank our lucky stars for everything we've got. Though life may always seem to be imperfect. Remember.

When I was in primary school, I was bullied. A lot. Maybe because it was the way I look or maybe these people just nothing else better to do with their time. Anyhow, I was always being laughed at, criticised at and so on. I remember I used to cry in class when these things happened. Some 'friends' even tried to throw leaves down my neck into my clothes on purpose!! A teacher once said that I looked like an 'old grandmother' too. I didn't like it. I remember a particular boy calling me ugly straight to my face. Man, that hurt a lot. Maybe, because of all these bad experiences, I cry easily. I still feel hurt when I think of these things. But thank God, I'm an okay person. In fact, a special one. :) I may not be able to forget these incidents but I think I'm able to forgive.

Have you ever wondered why do people fall for each other? I do, sometimes anyway. Maybe it's because there's something in that particular person that attracts another person. Maybe her laugh, his sense of humour and so on. But life, as you have it, doesn't always seem to go your way. I'll have crushes on this particular guy, then later to find out that he has crushes on another girl, which really breaks my heart into a gazillion pieces!! Haha. But then, life moves on and I soon find myself another target to have crushes on, non-intentionally mind you. :P Well, I just hope to find my own prince-charming one day. Cause i'm sure to find him when the time comes.

Well, recently I witnessed a fight in a park. I suppose I kind of got shocked as it was the first time i actually saw a person being beaten up by another. The thing was, no one moved in to curb the fight or to calm things down, including myself. I was rooted to the ground. Too shocked to move. Everyone was just where they were, watching, witnessing everything. The place was so quiet you could hear a pin drop, except for the guys who were fighting. It was like a slow movie being played right in front of my eyes. I really feel sad for these people. Where has all the humanity gone? I want peace back. And the witnesses, are we really scared to lend a helping hand for the sake of avoiding being beaten up? For me, I now know the answer.