Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

*Ahem* Something to make you go... "What the heck Kath?!" Hahaha. :D http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_5vmVHziyDs Go ahead. Click on the link. Just listening to the song is good enough. This was my childhood cartoon. Lol. I am going to double up in laughter... It's fun! Enjoy. Guys won't like this...

Dear God, I have had a horrible time during the last two weeks. I am struggling, Lord. Please don't put me in this situation. I am not strong enough to take it. I can't. I have been crying so much that I am so disappointed with myself. I do not know how to handle this. I have never been in a situation like so. Is there really no other way? Oh God, for the first time in my life, I feel so torn. So torn. I really, really don't know what to do....

The issues of the heart trouble me so.... Can I not have a heart? A heart that is made of flesh? Can I have a heart of stone instead? So that I don't FEEL So that nothing ever confuses me, Nothing can hurt me, Nothing can make me feel vulnerable? Can I follow my head instead of my heart? This war going inside of me, is tearing me apart. If I follow my head, then at least I won't do stupid things... But my heart... always prevails.

One reason why I don't like sitting in front of the idiot box. I become an idiot. -.-' An idiot who is addicted to drama series... Help. One episode and I am hooked. How can this be?? I remember during secondary school , Form 6 and University, I followed a lot of different series. Thai series, Japanese series, Indonesian series, Filipino series, Taiwanese Hokkien series, Spanish series and last but not least, the Korean series. Hehehe. See how well diversified I am? *Bleah* By the way, I followed all of them on TV. No downloading on the computer from the internet, no cheating by jumping to the last episode to see who ends up with who and no staying up till the wee hours of the morning just to see that girl or guy you're rooting for get kissed. I vigilantly followed the series, everyday or weekends, for that ONE  hour. Eesh. Internet is so much more fun now isn't it? ;) But yeah, I haven't been following any series much, except my Monday ones. :) Crime d...

Ok... Blogger changed their layout. Great! Not. Now I have to take some time getting used to it. Grrr... Facebook had better not change my profile layout to timeline too. Timeline my foot. It just makes me all the more lost looking the time thingie. Till we were born.. Speaking of time, let's go to the age topic. An issue a lot of women are sensitive about. Ask them, "How old are you?" They will start shooting you with so many nonsensical answers. But they never reveal their true age. Me? I wonder if I am in some sort of trouble. A lady thought I was 22 years old. An unlce thought I was in high school. Like are you kidding me??? When I go out with Eileen, people tend to assume I'm the younger one and she's the older one. *shocked face* So.... When I hang out with younger people, I blend in so well, they forget that I am the oldest among them. Not good. Ah well, not going to worry so much about it. When it comes to the crunch, I should be able to handle myself...

Dear KT, Yes, you have long been waiting for this post, haven't you? Hahaha. I can imagine your thoughts when you see this post's title. It should go something along the lines of this: "Now only write about me, people die already also never care. Slow poke." Hahahaha. Correct? *big wide grin* See la, jump and run around after eating le... that's why you get appendicitis. *referring to Jenny's grandma* Yes, I know that's not true. If you are expecting a sympathy or a caring post, you're not going to get it. Hahaha. Just kidding. I hope you have been doing good. Don't strain yourself please. As for our Mount Kinabalu expedition, here are my thoughts. The selfish part of me would definitely want you to come. One, you're a guy. We need guys.... Two, I don't know the others. You're like our middleman. Thank goodness Jenny is coming. Three, cause it will be fun. But.... The  more logical and unselfish part of me says you s...

"Robert Frost wrote, “ Love is an irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired .” There is some truth in that. We all want to be loved but just do not how to do it. However, to truly allow someone to love you all barriers have to be dropped. Walls must be broken down. You must allow yourself to be vulnerable. I detest my vulnerability. Again, I am a coward. I don’t like to let people in. I don’t want them to know that I am worn out; I am tired; I am jaded. I have been hurt one too many times. I have misjudged what love really is one too many times. Ultimately, my inability to let those who would love me into the deepest core of my being is based on my fear that this will result in my loss. " My sentiments exactly.... The writer above literally took the words out of my mouth. Enough said. :) God bless.