Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

2011 comes to a close in 30 more days.... What has changed? Have I changed? If yes, for better or for worse? If not, should I have? I HAVE changed. For worse I feel. I have become less confident. My self esteem has taken a hit. This whole year, I feel that I have been very unstable. I used to be very sure of myself. But somehow, I feel like I have lost a bit of me. The time I spend feeling down has increased exponentially, so fast till a point that it has started to scare me. What the heck is wrong??? I am not like this! I am not. I don't want to be like this. Pathetic! Sigh. See? Even this post has a down and melancholic tone in it. I am so confused that I do not know what to do. Even if I do, how to go about doing it? Is it the right choice? Will I regret my decision later? Christmas, where are you? Coldness is in my heart, clenching its fist tightly as the days go by. So cold, I fear I become like that too. A cold person, a heartless human being. An emot...

Was let off from work early today, unexpectedly. Yay! Just have to make sure I submit my reports and stuff on time. Haven't been updating for a while... cause I am sort of speechless. Hahaha. Yea... even typing this is using a lot of my brain memory and heartfelt feelings. I wouldn't say that a lot of things have been happening. It isn't reallly... but yet it has. In a way. Some idiot used my car as a getaway... no, he/she didn't steal it but they must have jumped from a high ledge onto my car to reach the ground. Cause there's a huge dent on the roof which collects water everytime it rains. Huh! Watched a few movies with friends. Nasi Lemak 2.0, In Time, Real Steel and Immortals. Immortals was like salivating la....hahahah. The actors, fuh! The scene where all the Gods stood/sat in the heavens looking down on earth was... *mouth hangs open* They wore gold costumes which bared their "heaven made" bodies and they looked good! Two girls beside me were bu...

Yes yes another post in the same day. I can't help it. My urge for dancing has led me to 'youtubing' songs which I enjoyed dancing to. Heheh. *shy* Here's one. Sugar Sugar - the Archies And another one... And another.... Oh gosh... I sound very old don't I? Hahaha. I really love the music then. Oh well, I always had the fancy for the 1980's and before. Not everything la. I can't stop laughing as I type this. No, my dear friends. I have not gone mad. This is just another side of me I don't really show much. Cause no one shares this interest. Who will? It's embarrassing... Hahaha. And you know what? Right now, I am dancing the Twist to the music video above. ROFL. *tears in my eyes* I have sing K kaki, now I need dancing kaki. :P My mid section hurts.

Oh my gosh... I suddenly have this urge to go dancing!!! I want to go for dancing classes. I remember Jenny asking me to join her last time, somewhere in TTDI. But I never found the time to, most probably because I procrastinate. Hahaha. How how? That urge is back!! I want to sway my hips, twirl my body, twist my shoulders, kick my legs according to rhythm & melodies!!! Clubbing is not dancing cause you are under the influence of alcohol. Everything seems nice when you're high. Ha. Really! I want real dancing. I can't start back on ballet again. I'll be in the same class as little kiddies. Grade 3... :( I actually don't mind line dancing. Lol. Aunty dance. Hey, I like the Twist. Remember Jive Bunny? Go 'youtube' it. It's nice! Of course, I love ballet but I think I am too old for that. I got into ballet cause mom thought I was a bit too tomboy-ish, always climbing into drains and catching tadpoles. Hahahaha. Belly dancing ain't too ba...