Me

Life? Ha! What is life I ask you? Life,as most people say is like a box of chocolates. You get different kinds of fillings but it's up to you to decide whether you want to enjoy it or not. For me now, my life is like the wheel of fortune. Bad luck and good luck all rolled into one. It will never stop spinning and spinning until the needle points at something which it thinks is worthwhile. It could be good news and it could be bad. Like you could pass with flying colours in your exams, or lose something which is much treasured by you. It all depends on how you see it and how you take it in your stride. Often, I find myself crumbling in defeat, slowly, piece by piece I get up finally to face the world. It takes a lot of courage and wisdom to be able to stand above it all. It is never easy.

Nowadays, I feel like I'm morphing yet into another form, into another person, into another personality. It's like I don't even know who I really am anymore. All this while, I've been donning on this mask. A mask which hides my true personality. The personality which I want to hide from other people. Lately, I find that this mask no longer fits me as it is bursting from its seams. The REAL me is trying to get out, trying to be free from everything that holds it back. For a few years, I've always find myself struggling to be what I want to be. Popular, well-liked and smart. I didn't really love and appreciate myself at that time. I always thought that I was never good enough for everyone. But now, as I become more matured, I am also on my journey to learn to love myself. I'm learning to accept things that cannot be changed, and to try to change things that could be changed for betterment of myself and other people.

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chian said…
Just be your good-natured self lah.. I see that a lot of ppl like you for you also wert... but sometimes u can try to be more open n dun tie yourself down..not too uptight...u'r young! this is your last teenage year girl! live life to the fullest! be more advanterous n dun care wat others think about u too much k? ^^

Be happy ;)
Saturday, July 30, 2005 2:13:00 AM
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