Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

Well well well. It's been a golly long time since I've last benn here. Keep forgetting to log in and then busy and etc. Hehe. Now let me update you on some stuff which happened during my absence. I went to do my spectacles, changing to a new frame or rather frameless which in purple in colour and my eyesight has deteriorated slightly. Aaiii... I also fell sick just recently. Had the cold, fever, cough.. the usual package you know. :) My monthly test is in three weeks time and I have a one week break next week. Yay! But I have to go back on two days for extra classes. Oh well. I have to really work hard this year.. don't want to repeat what happened during my SPM. I must focus on my goals and ignore those obstacles because I can do it!

Okay, you know right? Nowadays I think I've been extra stressed up and feeling really tense. One of my lymph nodes actually swelled and my head sometimes hurts too because I'm so tensed. When I press that lump, it's kind of hard and it also hurts a bit. Nothing fatal right? I certainly hope so. But it juts out of my neck and is so unsightly. Argh! When it first appeared I got kind of scared, thought was cancer or something. But now I know better, it's something to do with stress and all. So all I have to do is calm down and it will go away. It actually did, then it came back during the weekend.. eesh. So sad. Well, I hope that it will cease to exist. Pray for me.

How do you know that you're depressed? I don't. But when classes started about three weeks a go, I felt depressed. During that time, I sort of hated form six. Disliked the school, the unnecessary school rules, the ever piling mountain of schoolwork. I lost my temper with my parents quite often too. I cried at night and sometimes I even thought that how nice if I died without ever having to sit for STPM. Those were really my down moments. Have never felt so lost and down before. I sort of got frustrated with teachers as some of them obviously do not know how to teach. No one understands them. (There goes my Chem). I also felt irritated being pestered by silly probhi prefects whom some got a rude reply from me and a roll of my eyes as they had come under my fire. I seriously hope not to do that again. Aahhh!!! Felt terrible after that... But it's their fault too. Have to be more patient and understanding. Anyway, I do hope to lighten up too. And take things the positive way.....

Okay, holidays are ending soon, only four more days to school. Argh! The horrors. Don't know what's wrong with me. Used to be excited to go back to school. Maybe because I don't like the school that much yet, or maybe there's no one I'm excited to see about. Anyway, I think I have to gain back my momentum in preparation for classes. Managed to finish chapter 8 of chemsitry today. A bit sad huh? Had wonderful plans for the holidays but didn't end up doing them. I only did a bit of practice for pure mathematics. Freaking out already. STPM is coing soon. Very soon as time flies by quickly. I'm now having a headache rushing through a dateline for a group project. Can't identify the plants, have no way of nowing how. And with three of my group members' computer system down, I have to bear the load. Thank goodness another member still has a functioning computer. my shoulder aches due to the long sitting sessions and my head really hurts as I strain my eyes...

Hey ya people. It's been quite a long time since my last entry. I've been busy for these few weeks I can tell you. After my cameron trip, on Dcember 4th, I had to help out in some sports event, later on that same day I had a birthday gathering to attend to. I was so tired I nearly fell alseep at home! Then just last Friday, me and a bunch of church friends went to Penang for a holiday. Four days and three nights. Man! I certainly had fun with these people there. Really enjoyed this trip. Not to forget I also had to go to my friend's house to complete the bio project. Can't wait till it's done. But you know what? I haven't really started to study yet? And classes start in just three weeks time! Help! Eesh! Must seriously buck up. Well, just to say that I'm busy busy busy!

Haha. Yeah, yeah! It's the school holidays!! Feel so happy. Well, holidays actually started about two weeks ago, but I didn't have time to come online. So, here I am! I went to Port Dickson just last last Saturday and tomorrow I'm going to Cameron Highlands. Hooray! Can't wait. Hehe. A time to relax and catch bugs, bleah! That's the latest news for now. I need to study though, must not let the same thing happen again like SPM. STPM 4 As!

Okay. My exams were finally over since last week! Yippee! And of course I got back some of the results. Sad to say, I failed pure mathemetics this time. I don't know, I'm just not really good in add maths and pure maths and stuff. Thank goodness I'm not taking further mathematics. Would really kill me. Haha. Well, my biology and chemistry papers' results were okay. But I think I can certainly do better. For Maths too by the way. Have to put in more effort. Practice, practice, practice. Got to reach the sky next time. Yay!