Depression

How do you know that you're depressed? I don't. But when classes started about three weeks a go, I felt depressed. During that time, I sort of hated form six. Disliked the school, the unnecessary school rules, the ever piling mountain of schoolwork. I lost my temper with my parents quite often too. I cried at night and sometimes I even thought that how nice if I died without ever having to sit for STPM. Those were really my down moments. Have never felt so lost and down before. I sort of got frustrated with teachers as some of them obviously do not know how to teach. No one understands them. (There goes my Chem). I also felt irritated being pestered by silly probhi prefects whom some got a rude reply from me and a roll of my eyes as they had come under my fire. I seriously hope not to do that again. Aahhh!!! Felt terrible after that... But it's their fault too. Have to be more patient and understanding. Anyway, I do hope to lighten up too. And take things the positive way...

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chian said…
gawsh...cheer up gurl...u shd tok 2 someone when u'rdown..anyone..dun keep everything to urself..kay?
p/s: yeah i agree with esee_angel! y nv mention abt us 1?!?!??!?! btw...do u know who am i? haha!
Monday, February 14, 2005 7:25:00 PM
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