Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

Haha. Yeah, yeah! It's the school holidays!! Feel so happy. Well, holidays actually started about two weeks ago, but I didn't have time to come online. So, here I am! I went to Port Dickson just last last Saturday and tomorrow I'm going to Cameron Highlands. Hooray! Can't wait. Hehe. A time to relax and catch bugs, bleah! That's the latest news for now. I need to study though, must not let the same thing happen again like SPM. STPM 4 As!

Okay. My exams were finally over since last week! Yippee! And of course I got back some of the results. Sad to say, I failed pure mathemetics this time. I don't know, I'm just not really good in add maths and pure maths and stuff. Thank goodness I'm not taking further mathematics. Would really kill me. Haha. Well, my biology and chemistry papers' results were okay. But I think I can certainly do better. For Maths too by the way. Have to put in more effort. Practice, practice, practice. Got to reach the sky next time. Yay!

Man, how I do hate being sick! I have no mood to do anything. Can't read, study or even watch any TV programmes. When you have a cold, your nose and eyes water so often, you have to close your eyes and just sleep. Coz it just hurts to have them open. I feel bored at home because I can't seem to do anything. And yet when I'm in school, how I wished I could stay at home. Arrgh! And my exams are just next week! What a swell time to get sick.

Okay, I have no idea what I'm doing here cause I don't usually come online during school days. But I was tempted by my sister! Don't feel like going to school tomorrow. For the whole day, I only have two periods of class. Imagine that! Got to get my determination to study to face my future exams. Aaiii... Help me? Feel lost, like I've lost all my direction in life. Don't leave me in the dark here alone. I need a guide and a light. Do you hear me? :)

You know, most of us here are very lucky. Lucky in the sense that we are healthy, don't have any deformities and can lively comfortably with our parents' suffcient income. But yet, the grass is always greener on the other side for most of us. We tend to be ungrateful for what we have. Have we ever sat down and thought about how lucky we are? That we have a nice house to live in, enough food and clothes, able to go to school and so on. Rarely right? A lot of people aren't so lucky as we are. Some children have to skip classes to work just to support their family. Saddening is it not? Everyday, people are being warded in the hospital for all types of diseases. It seems nothing much to us until we are there ourselvs to witness and see the suffering they have to go through. So, we should thank our lucky stars for everything we've got. Though life may always seem to be imperfect. Remember.

When I was in primary school, I was bullied. A lot. Maybe because it was the way I look or maybe these people just nothing else better to do with their time. Anyhow, I was always being laughed at, criticised at and so on. I remember I used to cry in class when these things happened. Some 'friends' even tried to throw leaves down my neck into my clothes on purpose!! A teacher once said that I looked like an 'old grandmother' too. I didn't like it. I remember a particular boy calling me ugly straight to my face. Man, that hurt a lot. Maybe, because of all these bad experiences, I cry easily. I still feel hurt when I think of these things. But thank God, I'm an okay person. In fact, a special one. :) I may not be able to forget these incidents but I think I'm able to forgive.

Have you ever wondered why do people fall for each other? I do, sometimes anyway. Maybe it's because there's something in that particular person that attracts another person. Maybe her laugh, his sense of humour and so on. But life, as you have it, doesn't always seem to go your way. I'll have crushes on this particular guy, then later to find out that he has crushes on another girl, which really breaks my heart into a gazillion pieces!! Haha. But then, life moves on and I soon find myself another target to have crushes on, non-intentionally mind you. :P Well, I just hope to find my own prince-charming one day. Cause i'm sure to find him when the time comes.