Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

Great. Really great... I feel like crying again when I think of the incident. Today was the second time I dissected a mouse. Dissecting is not a problem to me. The thing is, the mouse that I killed and cut up today was PREGNANT and I think quite a few weeks already. I could see the foetus of the mouse babies. They WOULD HAVE BEEN able to live had I decided not to dissect their mother. I feel so sad and terrible to think they would never be able to see the world. I was half crying while dissecting this particular mouse. Really broke my heart. I suspected it was pregnant but thought that maybe I was wrong. Well, I am wrong alright! Killing little things like that... My teacher had to cut out the placenta for me. Tears were blurring my vision and I had to keep on wiping away my tears. Just feel so sad.

Haha. My monthly tests are over! Now I can relax for a bit and then continue studying!!! You know what? I'll be dissecting a mouse on Monday. You know, those kind of white laboratory mice. Eewww... have to kill them first then only can cut them open. But it's so gross and I'm kind of squeamish looking at blood and guts. Urgh! Hope I can do it. Searching on the internet on ways to dissect a mammal. But everything that crops up is not related to what I want. Tick infection, preparing a snail(what is this anyway?), plus some other silly biology stuff. Getting irritated. And to think that I followed what my teacher did to get her own dissecting procedure. Does the website hate me or what? Heheh. Ah!