Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

*Ahem* Something to make you go... "What the heck Kath?!" Hahaha. :D http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_5vmVHziyDs Go ahead. Click on the link. Just listening to the song is good enough. This was my childhood cartoon. Lol. I am going to double up in laughter... It's fun! Enjoy. Guys won't like this...

Dear God, I have had a horrible time during the last two weeks. I am struggling, Lord. Please don't put me in this situation. I am not strong enough to take it. I can't. I have been crying so much that I am so disappointed with myself. I do not know how to handle this. I have never been in a situation like so. Is there really no other way? Oh God, for the first time in my life, I feel so torn. So torn. I really, really don't know what to do....

The issues of the heart trouble me so.... Can I not have a heart? A heart that is made of flesh? Can I have a heart of stone instead? So that I don't FEEL So that nothing ever confuses me, Nothing can hurt me, Nothing can make me feel vulnerable? Can I follow my head instead of my heart? This war going inside of me, is tearing me apart. If I follow my head, then at least I won't do stupid things... But my heart... always prevails.