Bad Feelings


 
 
Beaver's dam. This is so me at the moment... Drowning again and again and again.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

The End

I thought I had it all... I really did until that incident occurred. Now, I have lost all hope in life. I think that life is no longer worth living. What for, I ask myself. To suffer? To be slaves for another? Answering to his every beck and call. No! I do not want it to be that way. I do not want to live that way. I want to be free! I want my freedom. No strings attached. Just me, and my wings. So that I will be able to fly up to the skies and leave this mess down here below. But how long till I get there? I have decided to quicken that process. I laugh to myself silently as I peel the sealed rectangular silver packing open. Inside, the sharp blade glistened, beckoning to me. Carefully I take it out and examined it. I can see my reflection upon it. My hair, my face, my fake smile. I can see the haunted look in my eyes that has been there for years. I can see my jawbones protruding out., which gives my facial features a harsher look. As if in a daze, I walk into the ba...
Read more

Death

I was Facebooking (what kind of word is this?!) the other day and I came across the profile of my secondary school classmate's brother. He passed away last year, after a battle with lung cancer. And guess what, if he were still alive today, he'd be sitting for his SPM in four months time... I teared a bit reflecting on how precious life is. Yet, people take it so lightly. They take theirs for granted and they even take other's life for granted like killing and murdering. Death, to me, was always associated with old people. You know, people with white hair, no teeth, wrinkly skin, that kind. But for the past year, I have heard of deaths of people younger than me. Sickness, accidents.. They kind of make me sit up straight in my chair and think. "We could die any moment." Honestly. Who says the Grim Reaper ain't gonna get you if you're young? It was heart wrenching when I saw friends of the boy, posting on his FB wall, wishing him wel...
Read more

Aimless

At first, I thought, I really knew what I wanted. But now, I no longer feel that way. I do not know what I want or what I am searching for. Everyday just seems to pass by in a dzae. Eat, sleep, housework, tv, computer. The same routine for almost everyday with the exception of some. I do not believe that I am laidback, yet I am not that particularly active as well. I wonder if I am too afraid to take risks. Too afraid to venture out. Afraid to enter the working world. Yet, studying again cripples me with fear. The feeling and a sense of being lost and stupid haunts me almost every hour. People tell me to enjoy it while I can. I do. But I detest this feeling of aimlessness. I feel useless and unworthy. And it gets worse as convocation day comes by, when I may soon be listed/ fall into that percentage as one of those who are jobless and not studying. Oh joy!
Read more