Intoxi'Kath'ing Whispers

Sometimes it takes the passing away of someone of your age, someone whom you have known personally, to make you contemplate on how unpredictable life is, how fragile it is. Two days back, a classmate and friend of mine passed away. She was my age and she was going to receive her doctorate at the beginning of next year. She was active on FB so the news of her demise was very sudden and of a big shock. I thought it was a spam as well when the news came because it just sounded too ridiculous to be true. But it was... KY, rest in peace. Thanks for inviting me over to your house for CNY last year. I'm sorry that I couldn't make it for this year's... if only I knew. Yea, if only I knew. I would have tried to rearrange my priorities. But it's too late now. May eternal rest and peace be granted upon you.

Look!!! Puppies. Running. Animated puppies. So dog. Much running. Very cartoon. Wow. Being doge... hahahaha. Suddenly I'm listening to The Kitchen Musical videos again on YouTube. Such miss... :) Progress of project report: - Literature matrix settled for now. Till I add in more articles. - So have to get my theoretical framework done...soon... Can I say that the dog ate my homework? >.<' I think I find it hard to write something because I have to. Writing is great when I have inspiration, ideas, ingenuity. But writing for academic purposes is cramping my style yo. Sigh... You can do it!

I have this playing in the background as I read and re-read my chapter 1 for tomorrow's appointment with le supervisor. I can imagine the things I'd be doing if I was a character in some TV show with this music in the background. Mayhem and destruction, so said someone. Very true, that does come to mind, doesn't it? Can you can a can as a canner can can a can? No? Well then, just do the can can.

Sorry been missing quite a while. Here's what has been happening! Exams are finally over and I am officially done with five trimesters of my studies... Whooppee!! Now, I only have one more trimester to go. You can do it Kathleen.Go kick some arse. Here's what some of us did to celebrate the end of exams. Crazy spontaneous trip. Genting's cool glow in the dark bowling alley We went up to Genting for a while. "A while" as in we left at 4pm sth and came down at 8pm sth... The shortest Genting trip ever in my life. I want to stay the night next time please. :) We got lost... hahahaha had to make a u turn near Taman Melati and get back on the proper track. The other car reached first and had to wait again for us as we could not find the parking entrance into One World hotel. The renovation up there is a mess! Well, we basically just hanged out in the casino. Some of them wanted to play, finance people ma, the rest of us just walked around, took ...

Should I say yes to something??? I'm scared. A lot of "What ifs" and "Buts" play on my mind. I'm just scared. Yet, if I don't try I will never know right? Right?? How do people make this kind of decisions? Huh. Indecisiveness.

The two aunties in our uni's photostat shop were gossiping about me. -.-' Really... bukan perasan ni tahu? Cause one of the aunties asked me today. She said the other lady was wondering if I was Chinese or Sabahan.She said I should be Chinese due to the way I speak Malay which is very different than that in East Malaysia.(I've been there, it's true.) She guessed right and they shared this story with me today. I wanted to laugh, this is really funny. First time I'm put as a Sabahan. Lol!! And from aunties in the photostat shop of all places... ********************************************************************************* Today as well, I earned my first RM 20 freelancing. Heh heh heh. My very first. Guess what it's for? Proofreading and editing research proposals. Wahahaha. I never believed that I could earn money from doing this. I've thought about it but was never really given the opportunity. So now here I am... trying my hand at this. ...

Today, I realise that yes, I am a rebel on the inside. Outside I seem very agreeable, But I am raging on the inside. Like what someone mentioned to me previously... Passive-Aggressive. Do not corner me or push me into a tight spot, please. If you do, I will end up bursting out at you. And then both of us will get hurt. Thank you.